And because of this, I’m exhausted, both mentally and physically. For the longest time now I’ve taken on everything in my life at full throttle, and I’m starting to notice that it’s really sapping my energy, and allowing negativity to empower my thoughts. My patience for dealing with difficult people is at an all time low, and my irritability is at an all time high. I don’t know if this is related or not, but lately my eating habits have been suffering too. On most days I’ve been having an extreme lack of appetite, and I have to force myself to eat or drink anything. I’m out of gas, but I keep going through the motions day after day, not because I want to, but because I know I have to.
I heard that a small bodybuilding competition will be held nearby in a couple weeks. It’s not too late for me to sign up. I’m not prepared one bit but I’m thinking about jumping in at the last minute and just having some fun with it.